Friday, July 30, 2004
vindicated
Friday, July 30, 2004
pLaYinG: numb
haven't blogged for a million yrs.
i'm sorry.
i've been very sick laely. flu plus cough. so sian. didn't go to school yesteday. visited the doc. gave me an mc for a day. went to school this morning. they were like 'what happened to you...?' i'm not well yet, a lil giddy today.
lessons was as usual, anna chan yelling and everything. chem practical was kinda fun. titration thingy. my partner was jackie. he's a cool guy, really helpful and nice. saved my skin with a maths a couple of times. anna chan is such a bitch. after recess, SCs started the jap exchange program duties. mine was kinda tedious and i since i had my medcine, i felt so tired and i had a lil nap in the NE room. kinda dumb but there you go. later i played congkak with aufar. it's one of my fav game. later i played with erwin also. reminds me of kenny. he has been back for a week already. kinda miss him. but he's such a bastard, brought back all the vcds to aussie. sweet asshole. i hope he remembers my birthday that ass. after the exchange, shuming, weijoe, vanessa, edwin, sam and i stayed back in class and did the booth design for the robotics thingy tomorrow. it's nice talking to them openly. i feel i'm more honest with my feelings now. that's good. lol.
i'm getting drowsy. medicine had taken effect. goodnight!
ciao
Thursday, July 15, 2004
Thursday, July 15, 2004
pLaYinG: numb
i've never felt as good as today these days.
my very first nationals. though i did not get into the finals, i got myself a pb and really enjoyed the race and did not get last.
this morning i woke up feeling queasey and thinking that no one loves me and sick and everything bad. my maid woke up late so i did not had my breakfast. i forgot my track shirt and had to tell my driver to bring it to school later for me. it seemed like so bad to start a day. went to school and the weather became bad. and i got my fucking period yesterday afternoon. i was feeling so so so so bad and angry and everything. i was like wishing it to come on friday or something, but nothing seems to go my way.
i'm so deprived of money and shopping. i miss shopping so much!!! i want to get earings and more clothes. my bikini craze is over and now i just want to shop for shoes and bags. gawd. i'm such a spendthrift.
okay, back to subject today.
i walked to the bball court and sat down. shan ling and hannie was there. later jun long announced that they can return back to class due to the stupid weather. later, we had a maths lesson. anna chan was so crazy. later i started to have period cramps and i left for the sick bay during CME lessons. it didn't seemed to work when i sat and rested for a moment. so the clerk at the office told me to get a hot drink in the canteen. it proved to have worked. my mood got brighter for a moment. then all the lessons..............................
during recess, conan was like trying to tell ppl that i'm having my period. he can fredrick was like cursing me on wednesday. that was so stupid, i really got my period. so he was like so proud that he jinxed me. what an idiot. after recess, we went back to class and got our stuff. ryn nv hug me. =(
later i went to get my track shirt from my driver. and waited and waited and later left the school. ying, calvin, conan, corrine and me waited for a cab for so bloody long. we went to the stadium and went to the usual place. ying, corrine and me went to change and i went back to sleep. i was so tired. at 1 somthing, we went to do warm up. and i saw florence. she was there to do her 100m race. =D
we went to report at 2.30. i felt like an idiot in the reporting room as it was my first time there. i felt so alone and queasy and nervous and scared. when i applied my counterpain, my hands were shaking. i was so nervous.
a few moments later, the gun went off and i was running. cut into lane 2 after the first red flag and open up. i was not thinking at all. i felt ao calm as i thought i'd never be. at the second round of 200m, i felt the heaviness in my legs. i heard clare's cheer and that really pushed me on. at the last 100m, i gave chase and really pushed on. i felt good. i was really happy i didn't got last. i walked up the stairs choughing really badly. like something's stucked in my throat. later i went to the toilet and vomitted. i was crying, i felt pain and happiness. i never had that feeling before.
later the others had their races. ying and corrine was strong. they did pretty well. calvin went off too fast but he was still good. the relays were the most exciting. they did so well. i'm so proud of the c boys! they got into the finals. i'm really suprised at steven and amira's feat. they caught up so much. it was really good. i could have just cried again - tears of joy.
after the races, conan and i had our physic test. mr lee is so lame, he wanted us to take the test in the stadium. i think my vector part it wrong. and i forgot the mircowave in the EMS. dammit.
wanted to have dinner with the track ppl. but my driver was already there. it's really the best day of my life.
ciao!!!
Tuesday, July 13, 2004
world best
Tuesday, July 13, 2004
pLaYinG: burn
i have zero idea how so many ppl i don't know have my e mail address and kept adding me. so irritating.
second day of mission week.
it's kinda dry today. on family love, and loving self, not to the extent of kissing yourself in the mirror i mean. like having self esteem and everything. later we went down early and the the shock of my life, we saw most of the sec 2 SCs not doing their duty at all. so slack sia.
later after the session, anna chan came in and told us that we have a maths lesson after the talk. we were like 'NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!' and 'OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!' or 'WE HATE YOU ANNA!!!!!!!!!!!!!' or, 'ANNA WEAR G STRING and LACY BRAS!!!!!!!'
but in the end we STILL had to go. =(
lol
went to get my track suit with zana and conan. oh ya. we took our class jersey too. it's kinda nice. but it's a little see through, so you can like, see the girl's bra. omg, that's like so pervertic. ANYWAY, after lesson aroound 3.30. ryn, nana, serra and i went to the canteen and had our teachers' day celebration meeting. and 3 of us are there only. how pathetic.
later serra left and ryn, nana and i crapped a lot waiting for my driver to come because it's raining heavily. i hate the weather. but i love it when i'm sleeping la. cuz it's sooo comfy. =D it's going to be 8 soon. daddy's girls is showing!!
ciao
Monday, July 12, 2004
wet hair
Monday, July 12, 2004
pLaYinG: confession
have not blogged for days. ken returned back from aussie 3 days ago and he had been bugging the computer for days. completely sickining.
i don't like this new setting of blogger. it's so bad. reminds me of friendster.
ok enough of crap. today's the start of mission week. it's pretty interesting. all the things that teenagers faces and blablabla. it's not really new anyway. but it's much more better than listening to mrs chan chanting away.
it stopped at 1.30 and we had this talk about STDs in the school hall. there's some interesting pictures.
after that, conan, piggo and me went to look for the sec 2s. they have not finished their lessons and we just waited. we later met up with the rest of the track ppl and collected the track shirt from mr tok. it's so comfy and it's dri-fit. =D
later, had training. went home and watched tv. my dad suggested to go jogging and i was like mocking and laughing at him. he was so funny. lol. he bought this reebok sports shoes 2 yrs ago and never touched it. i was pretty impressed when he completed running 2 rounds of my estate. it was about 3km.
ciao
Thursday, July 08, 2004
despair
Thursday, July 08, 2004
pLaYinG: i don't wanna know
i was behaving like a mental woman let out of MIH today.
i was singing and mumbling like a retard this morning.
shanling was pretty pissed that she moved to the back.
leaving me alone in my world
it's really sad you know
so i kept singing and singing and singing till recess came.
i was highly depressed today.
"what will you do if i'm dead"
recess was even worse.
i don't know why but i'm having this hatred for samuael now
i can't stand him.
ewin too
i can't stand their spasticity.
it's really driving me off
samuael just can't STOP criticising me
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why can't life just get any better?
ciao
seriously samuael, one day i'm going to shut you up.
score as a human being.
Your score as a human being is 83.95.
You are close to ideal. So close, and yet so far. Amusing, really, to watch someone squirm so close to the vaunted ranks of perfection and still remain so very, very ordinary. It is all one can do to keep one's ingratiating smile from polluting one's perfect face.
Actually, one recommends you take the quiz again and lie a little.
Tuesday, July 06, 2004
blablah
Tuesday, July 06, 2004
i feel like shit. those big lumps of shit lying around, outside yr house, on yr dad's car, outside the windows, on the ground, on your head, in the toilet bowl, in the sewage.
wadeva
ya, that's me.
laugh all you want, samuael ho shan wei.
Friday, July 02, 2004
been apart
Friday, July 02, 2004
pLaYinG:burn(duh! it's on my blog)lol
had training today though it's a friday because all of the teachers are going to kukup island. lol.
yesterday mr tok brought us to the commerce room to watch a video. it was so inspirational. john foppe. he was born without arms. go here to find out more. anyway, he's someone who should be every one's idol. his disablilty has made him a better person.
samuael has been calling me a bimbo! hello i'm so not. i may be retarded in my words and actions but it doesn't mean i'm a bimbo! hell no. shan ling just conplained i'm a walking radio. ok, i'm just LOQUACIOUS. alright? and samuael's really shallow and can you pls stop being such a persermist? it's getting on my nerves. samuael always talk so loudly and lately he's being so insultive that one day i'm going to slap his face upside down. =P
there's nothing much today. just busy collecting money, blablabla. there's so much hw. there's 5 physic assignments, one e maths, and eng vocab ws. busy weekend pls.
and guess wad. i'm chef for the carnival. lol. i managed to convince mr lee that I CAN COOK!!! lol. go and get the carnival tickets and get into the line for my food!!! lol [BHB]
ciao
